The past day’s schedule:
6:00 PM: B. home. I tell him he needs to take over, it’s been a rough day.
6:30 PM: dinner. Take turns eating while one person attends to whomever is crying.
7:00 PM: Go upstairs to shower. Breasts leaking. Pump. Bring milk down. Both babies are crying. Sit and feed J. while B. feeds F.
8:00 PM: Take 2 on the shower
9:00 PM: Go to bed.
10:30 PM: Pump
12:30 PM: Wake up to pump. Turn off air conditioner downstairs and in spare bedroom (which B. had turned on for reasons that I am sure made sense at the time.) Let cat out of storage room, which she managed to get locked in since 2.
1:30 AM: Feed, burp, change F.
1:45 AM: Pump
2:00 AM: Feed, burp, change J. Pees while changing him. I am so tired I stare at arc of urine in utter perlexity.
3:00 AM: turn out lights, go to “sleep”
3:45 AM: Feed F.
4:00 AM: Pump
4:30 AM: Feed J. Have meltdown. Leave babies in bassinet and go to basement for 15 minutes. They are quiet when I get back. This lasts until I get into bed.
5:00 AM: put J. on chest in hopes that will soothe him. Alternate between patting and rubbing back for 45 minutes.
5:45 AM: Get up. Feed J. Change J.
6:00 AM: Feed and change F.
6:15 AM: Suspicious sound causes me to change J. again. Poops twice and pees once while I am changing him.
7:00 AM: Doula arrives. God is good. She takes over.
7:05 AM: Breasts leaking prolifically. Pump.
7:30 AM: Go to sleep
9:30 AM: Pump
9:45 AM: Go to sleep
12:00 Noon: Nurse F.
1:00 PM: Feed J.
2:00 PM: Feed J. and F., alternating as they cry. Change when done.
3:00 PM: Change sheets on bed.
4:00 PM: same as 2:00, with a bath thrown in (for them, not me)
4:45 PM: B. home early. Watches babies while on conference call.